Worrying or Trusting God

I rode the high wave of euphoria for 48 hours. Head in the clouds, feeling weightless as my heart soared to new heights.

It was the news I had been waiting for. The very thing I’d prayed desperately to receive. For years. And God, in all His graciousness, had granted the desire buried deep in my heart.

But the crushing came quickly.

I should’ve expected it, too.

The enemy wastes no time filling God’s children with great doubt and discouragement, especially when they’re trying their dead-level best to be salt and light.

It caught me off guard. And with one sharp needle, my heart deflated on the spot.

Fear rushed in to the quickly created gap. A full list of “oh nos” and “what ifs” filled my mind.

Surely, God, you didn’t bring me this far to let me go. I know that’s not how you operate. You’re working for my good, for your glory. And your plan is perfect.

I reminded myself of the truth over and over again. And as I spoke what knew, claiming it over what I felt, the words of Isaiah came to mind.

“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast because they trust in you.” Isaiah 26:3

It’s always been out of my hands. Never once have I possessed an ounce of control.

Over anything.

It’s all been God.

It’s always been God.

And the minute I begin to claim control, to try and take over, peace is nowhere to be found. Because the more I trust in myself, the less I trust in God. The more I lean on my own understanding, the more I worry.

Worrying doesn’t change a thing. Never has, never will. But trusting God, that changes me.

I can surrender the anxiety and doubt at His feet because I know He is going to do what’s best. I know He’s going to stay the course with His plan. And I know He has my best interest at heart.

Regardless of how things might look or how I feel in the moment.

And the same goes for you too, my friend.

You will not find peace by trying harder or worrying yourself sick. You can spin your wheels all you want, but it’s God who will move you forward in the right direction He has planned for you.

So let’s rest. Let’s trust. Let’s remain steadfast and focused.

And then let’s bask in the soul-refreshing peace that surpasses all understanding.